Mz Icelemontea

2012-01-31T04:52:00.003+08:00

Eh hi ! I seriously think that i REALLY need someone to brainwash my cutelittleuseless brain to really think about my fugging future and to just stick to one fugging proper job ! and stop wasting money going shopping ! and to cut down on foods ! Hek . SERIOUSLY AHHHH~ adoooi. I need to do something with my brain arh ! Kalau da kaye gila takpe ahh. Savings pun tak cukup nak tanggung anak, tanggung diri sendiri jelarh kau sampai mati, hidup dalam cave jadi caveman sudah. Ohh tak eh. hehe. WALAAAOOWEI AHH MIMIE KAU PERANGAI.. Kbye ! hek.

2012-01-02T22:28:00.001+08:00

It is easier to live through someone else than to become complete yourself. I get jealous, I get mad, I get worried, I get curious. But that's only because I love you so much and I don't wanna lose you. Kbye!

2011-12-24T05:11:00.001+08:00

Happy 32nd Monthsary .

sighs .

-xoxo-

2011-12-15T14:30:00.005+08:00

It hurts so much, for letting you go when i didnt want you to. Maybe I'm over you. Maybe I've moved on. Maybe I like someone else. But maybe, I'm just a really good liar. Please don't go. I hate looking at you happy with someone else. If loving you would mean heartbreak and endless quarrels, it would be worth it and i'll continue the waits.

I want you here..

2011-12-12T15:36:00.009+08:00

Time does not change us, it just unfold us. Our story has three main parts, a beginning, a middle, and an end. And although this is all the way all stories unfold, i still cant accept the fact that ours didnt go on forever. Loving you has never been the problem. What’s troubling me is how loving you may never be enough. I choose ego and not fight for you, its because you didnt fight for me first. But theres no use if i keep you on hold if you are the one who wants to leave. Words are just words, you liar. I'm fcuking lost with you leaving me. I need a change, but please, i want a change with you by my side. But hey, you said, you love me before you left, shahrizan. Baby, please dont go ~ Im yearning for your hugs and kisses so badly.

P/s: I dont want to get you out of my head, as I am still holding on to every word you ever said.

Life is too short to be unhappy..

2011-12-06T15:11:00.003+08:00

I dont mind clingy. Infact, i appreciate more, When you constantly tell me you miss me, or get worried when i dont respond quickly. Because it shows that you actually care for me. But sometimes,i dislike how most of the time you dont believe me when i tell you I LOVE YOU. You know i rarely say it, but when i do, you should trust me. I dont throw out words like that to impress you. I say it cause i mean it. And please dont compare between you and my other buddies. A little jealousy is good, its nice to know that you actually afraid of losing me. What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction. Kbye.

P/s: Follow me on twitter, Thelittlestmind.

2011-10-25T18:26:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 30TH MONTHSARY !

I keep fighting for us, because I want you, the first time I saw you, I just knew. No matter how many times, we yell at each other, deep down we both know, we’ll never find another. Even if obstacles separate us, we somehow always return, love will always guide us, we just live and learn. I want you to know, when the day comes to an end, I just can’t picture life without you

Its much easier to turn a friendship into love than,

2011-10-24T05:53:00.005+08:00

Dont you dare remember me when you start forgetting her . I dont mind being there for you . I just mind being the one you run when everyone else is busy . Now , i felt stuck in the bottom of a wishing well . I was desperate to shout what i wanted , but i didnt know what that was . I knew only what it wasnt . I suck big time . I know . Kbye .

Eh Hie...Im a HACKER!!!

2011-10-10T02:34:00.004+08:00

Eh hie,hello beloved Baobei...
I managed to get in Lar sey.
Blame Ur jungle for his stupidity to save the password!!!
So no need for me to BLAST my brain offf...Huuuhuurr!!!
Mcm Fun gitu kan.
Aniway nothing much actually.
Just wanna tell you dat i enjoyed my Friday night wit u...
And so looking forward to next one.
And watever Problems dat come by,BE STRONG!
I noe you are.
And u know u'll always have me.
Lastly,i noe Ur jungle pig love you....
But I love you MORE.....
I DUN CARE.
I MORE TAU.
okielah,Gud nite my Baobei <3.
Muackz,Muackz,Muackz on ur forehead.

Ps. Cute Kan pompuan yg dlm pic tu,i noe...
Singing~ La....laa...laa....

Nurashikin Binte O. loves Siti Nur Fatin Syamimi bte H. more...............

TO THE GIRL I LOVE DEEPLY .

2011-10-09T05:50:00.002+08:00

DEAR BABYGIRL .
i know in the PAST ive been FOOLING AROUND .
but this time round . im really putting effort . if only you notice . i tried sacrificing.
tried to understanding . trying everything to please . ive even made a PROMISE TO MYSELF .
that i will only LOVES YOU . i even DREAMT bout marrying you . SIGH ,

promise me this please . lets go thru thick and thin together . forget all the past . build a new start TOGETHER . never forgets that I WILL ALWAYS LOVES YOU AND ONLY YOU . never FORGETS ABOUT LOVING ME ALRIGHT ?
SHAHRIZAN BIN OSMAN SAYANG SITI NUR FATIN SYAMIMI .

To love would be an awfully big adventure.

2011-10-07T13:57:00.003+08:00

I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. Im yearning for a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved. Just by you and your side.

A person can’t deserve someone’s love more than someone else. It’s sort of the nature of the beast, that love is given freely and without condition, regardless of whether you’ve “earned” or “deserved” it. You make mistakeS before and its obviously not gonna be the same anymore. And you get mad on me being this way ? I think im the who should be mad instead. sighss.. Kbye.

I am just sick

2011-09-26T08:19:00.004+08:00

Eeeeee ! Looks down , ade orang tatawu malu asal boleh masuk hacked blogger saye :P hahaha . Mintak kene rembat siaa . Tau aje password -.-' psft. Anw , i really had a blast for my "16th" birthday this year , and it goes to my past years too . Thanks to ALL . But still , ergh ~ Ahh Nehmind , its just a birthday not a big deal though . Hell with it . Come find me , when you think you need me . I'm sincere like always .

I hate how we never got a chance to see what could've been. I hate how i know i am not over you and how i pretend to be. But still, Knowing that you're hurt by your complicated relationship, i am always there to pick you up and always giving you chance to win me over and over again . I know i should let you go . I just can't yet . Kbye .

A silent post from me . ijanLITTLE

2011-09-25T07:33:00.007+08:00

hey GUYS . shocking kan ? haha i know . especially to the owner of this blog .

BABYGIRL . i testtest sekali dapat masok sey . haha . siesie jek . haha .

dah masok abey tak kan tak tau . kacau sikit la . haha . ok teeet .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG .

just wanna tell you I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU AITE .

nothig much to say . PRESENT WILL BE COMING IN 1 OR 2 WEEKS time kae .

we use PAJAMAS sleep together . haha . CUTE kan ? kankankan .

kaylah . off to sleep . dari tadi nk sleep tapi tak boleh .

tak marah kan i transpass your blog . haha .

SORRY ? kaekaekae .

i love you .

Everybody Hurts

2011-09-17T01:16:00.002+08:00

And I know , you never meant to make me feel this way ..

Laughter is ...

2011-08-27T07:06:00.001+08:00

Eh hi , some people are afraid of what they might find if they try to analyze themselves too much, but you have to crawl into your wounds to discover where your fears are. Once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can begin. It is never too late to be what you might have been. Kbye.

Expectation is the root of all heartache

2011-08-01T17:36:00.002+08:00

You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, that’s the sad truth. Maybe they’ll break your heart, maybe you’ll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself in the same way. Those are the risks. That’s the burden.

Its a good thing once in a while you take a break from everything and keep yourself problems free even if it last for just a moment. Everyone has their weak spot. The one thing that, despite your best efforts, will always bring you to your knees, regardless of how strong you are otherwise. okehh bye.

Its always you .

2011-07-25T16:11:00.008+08:00

Eh hi , i decided to edit this post because i kinda think this post was superb long previously. To whoever that didnt have the chance to read, im sorry :) Anyways , its all about Me and Him . Missed. I love you still and i love my girlfriend too. Imma confused gay now and i know i am selfish. Kbye.

Love is not a because,

2011-07-19T23:12:00.006+08:00

Eh hi !

Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outstrike dislike.
And yahh , i neglect both my tumblr and blogger because i have my own secret diary in my iphone (: Things not going smoothly eversince .... Confusion , Anger , Everything starts to play around all the time. I'll just go with the flow. And ohh, i'll drop by anytime again hahahaha !

Okehh bye .

Yesterday is but today’s memory,

2011-05-21T01:23:00.003+08:00

" We procrastinate when we've forgotten who we are " ,

Eh hi , err maybe that explain much on why i love procrastinating right . sighs.. Things been hard for me now . I can't handle some simple situations and tend to leave everything at once . I know i choose the wrong way to handle things , but i have to and i am left with no choice . Please don't blame me fully . Go self reflect alright . To all , i am sorry . I am not a good girlfriend , never ever . Bye .

2011-03-08T17:02:00.002+08:00

Eh hi,

my time are limited to entertain big young people.

Ohh tk ehh.

Okehh bye.

The best i ever had ...

2011-02-28T00:05:00.005+08:00

Happy 2years Annivesary , love .

I loved you the moment I saw you. I love you now, and I’ll love you forever. No goodbye.

May our relationship last longer till we both found ourselves a hubby hahaha i wouldnt want to loose you okehh , if only i could marry you . meeehehehehehs ohh tak ehh . I love you sampai syurga okehh dear . Youre the best i ever had . Short and simple . Mwahh .

We'll celebrate our special day in belated okehh sayang . So sad we are both busy with work . Takpe , kan nak kawin . Ohh tak ehh . Tayang you .

2011-02-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

Eh hi , That's Ibu , the love of my life . Ever since i started my new job , i've been drifting apart from all my friends . I really mean ALL . I really have no more time to party and all . My only hope now is to have some meet up after work or bumped into each other one day . Ahh damn , i miss alot already . tsk Actually i have nothing to post , i only update for the sake of dont want my blog to look dead meehehehehehehehs . Okehh bubbye .

Only hope can keep me together.

2011-02-14T16:21:00.003+08:00

Sad enough , i lost the girl in that picture . I dont know when will she really come back and take over my current place because this is fcuking hurt , i feel shit . I dont know how things can turn out to be this way . I don't really have any idea . My past ? haha Too much to procrastinate still . sighs .. " Dont let your past dictate who you are ~ But let it be part of who you will become. " Fcuk shit . Okehh , i can't continue . Im not good .

Err yahh , i choose EGO . Im sorry , i am not a good girlfriend . Text me if you want , because you know i wont make the first move . You know me the best . FIRST AND THE LAST , you know what i meant by that . Okehh bye .

This is how it works .

2011-02-08T09:08:00.008+08:00

Eh hi , i cant stand looking at my boring blog so dusty and not updated -.-' Macam faham mak ladodeh only want put this blog on HIATUS tsk . Too much of me getting a new job faster ehh psft till now i havent got one . AIYAAAAYAYAYAYYY !

Errk Ohh , i've come to realized that i must learn to love the fool in me the one who feels too much , talks too much , misses too many chances , wins sometimes and loses often , lacks of self-control , loves and hates , hurts and gets hurt , promises and breaks promises , laughs and cries . Agree much ? Nuhh , i dont need any comments :) Sorry . Ermm Okehh just a short and simple comeback post alright that's all . Okehh byyes .

Ex-girlfriend , May you live happily at your new home . May we meet again in our dreams alright . Lastly , i won't forget you as the girl that ever stole my heart and i loved before . We miss you . :\

Time does not change us ...

2011-01-25T04:49:00.003+08:00

Eh hi , I got my voice back err YAY ? hmm Alright , I've decided to put this blog on hiatus . So yeah , i'll be right back . The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do . I wonder how so many can be in so much pain , while others don't seem to feel a thing . Okehh Byyyyyyes .

The greatest pain that comes from love is ....

2011-01-15T03:55:00.006+08:00

Eh hi again , i am not an ANDRO please . tskk .

Ohh I am feeling so fcuked up currently . Maybe its just me and my moodswings , yahh . I get frustrated because i lost my voice currently . To me everything just seems to be not right . Damn fcuking IRRITATING alright . I am hating whoever who laughs at my current condition . I mean it , really . sighs .. . Alright , come back voice . I need you badly . Okehh byyyes .

To you , I miss you like one crazygirl who is going to jump down from 2nd floor meehehehehs you know who you are alright :) We catch up soon alright love . *hugs and kisses*

The truth is not only stranger than you imagine, ...

2011-01-08T03:48:00.004+08:00

Goodbye long hair , Hello again to my short hair :)

Eh hi , I am not an andro , fcuk ! &&& I don't look like one too , stoooooopid . Ohh btw , I am just wasting my time here because i cant put myself to sleep yet . That's all . I am missing too many of my precious already . Meet up Meet up Meet up soon alright . Okehh bye .

Sometimes the feelings we start to have again ...

2011-01-03T21:05:00.005+08:00

Happy 3rd . 9 months passed .

What now ? i've just got nothing to share now . I am so tired and cranky . Sister has been discharged . sighs .. You and i may not clique and all but i still have to accept the fact that we are sisters . i hate you always please . :/ Some friend says me being so ego , whatever you want to say alright .

I ignore my handphones more often nowadays . idk why . I am so gonna turn into a pig this year . heh . I've been spending more time in my lala lands . hahaha . MIMIE LOST AND FOUND . heh .

Ohh some bitch just confessed that she hated me for being a gay but yet theres still guys going after me instead of more girls ? ohh please . What reason are you giving me , bitch . Kau merepek nak mampus please . Mal nak lai bahan macam kau . No wonder lelaki tak pandang kau , pasal kau merepek . Such a pity .

bottom line ,

its disappointing enough that you didnt share something that is i am suppose to be happy about for you to got into something . sighs .. i got to knowabout it when you were sharing it in fb with your cousin . hmmm . Up till now, its kinda disappointing enough that you've not told me anything about it . You are so worried about my silence from you , which is to me that's not really important right now, damn it . hmmm i'll wait for you to tell me and share even if i am the last person to know . Its okehh for now but idk what's my reaction gonna be after you told me . Good Luck for your assmnt . sighs .. Okehh bye .

Darkness does not leave us easily ...

2010-12-26T05:56:00.007+08:00

go je pongg boleh .

Eh hi , Whats the big deal with my smile and laughter i'd got nowadays ? Its just so fake . FAKE . Again , i want to hear more of you , please don't wait . Lets just go straight again . Yes I’m scared, yes I’m jealous. I’m scared that you think she’s pretty, I’m scared that you find her more interesting, I’m scared that you think she’s so much better than me, I’m scared that you’re gonna leave me soon. And yes I’m jealous that she gets to see you, I’m jealous that you talked to her, I’m jealous that you had fun with her. I’m scared.. I’m jealous.

But that’s only because you mean a lot to me. I can't fight these feelings any longer , i admit and it leads me to who i am now . I don't behave well and pretending i don't bother much where actually i'd been thinking and worried about you most of my time . I know i am choosing paths that will make things get more complicated .

Sorry . Its not that i am not trying . I did and i am still trying but it depends on the situation we are in . Yes , you don't feel anything now and you won't know how often i am actually thinking of you . Yes i've changed and i am pretending that i'm not but its just because i don't want to look so weak in your eyes . Ohh , Only God knows . Just for you . Sometimes my silence means , i simply just can't find the right words to fit in everything where actually i wanted to share with you so much , i really do but i suck . hmmm I hate that part of me and that's when i strongly go " nevermind , just forget it , i suck . " sighs ... Alright , i am feeling tooooo restless , i dont know how i should continue from here . Please Please Please fully recover faster sitinurfatinsyamimi ! I am too tired of you being so weak already . Toodles .

Telling the difference between ..

2010-12-22T04:40:00.007+08:00

hidung asik kene kidnap jerr .

Eh hi , i am supposed to be asleep by now . Sad thing is , i simply cant bring myself to my dreamland due to my kefale fenings nak mamfus . I nak get better by sunrise please please please . Headache then update blog arh ? bahyeeeeek . tsk Go jerr . Then vwhaaat ? heh . I is da macam mayat meeehehehehehes . Okehh , go jerr . Serve me right for not taking care of myself -.-'

Ermm oh wait , HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY . I is sayang you .

Okehh mummy , you have to wait for 24th alright hahahaha

Ohh actually i've just got so much to say , but nuhh , i is mals . Thank you not very nice . Ermm I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you , but i'm still hoping that i'll be with you somehow . Dishhtakkk ! Lets have some fun again tonight . Okehh bye earths .

Sometimes the people you love ...

2010-12-17T15:41:00.007+08:00

hidung kena kidnap

Im effing lazy already to update here more often heh i did more update in my tumblr . I've mention before i feel safe there . I know its getting boring here , sorry . hahahaha My handphones irritating leii tskk And yahh , ive been ignoring so many text msges and calls . I just dont feel like replying or answering alright . hmmm

Ohh i miss the girl i used to be . I miss the girl you used to be . Everything's changed . You hate it , me either but i cant help it but to just go with these current flow sighs .. hmmms what wrong for me to feel insecure now ? tell me .

Sidetrack , this is a story of a girl who only loved things that couldn’t love her back.

I may not get to see you as often as i see my friends . I may not get to hold you in my arms throughout my days and nights . No matter what , let me be the stupid one . I'll still love you alright and will keep on loving you . Yes , you've been telling me that you miss me and stuff . And yahh i've been ignoring all that right ? I didnt mean to but im on purposed . Paham ? Tak paham takpa :) So , yahh i miss you fcuking hell too , bitch .

Bottomline ,

Macam feeling satu post ni untuk kau je disshhtakk ! Okehh bye . Tc .

Silence is ...

2010-12-06T09:50:00.015+08:00

It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see. sighs .. That's it , I'll be deliriously happy or at least leave myself open to be. Pretend ? No ? Yes ? sighs .. Topsy turvydom .

I've realized that numbing the pain even if its just for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it. :'|

Thanks Ann for wanting to send me home yesterday . I'm fvuking shagged sia , sorry if i ignore most of your craps HAHAHAHA . Yahh i know you will go " you know how tired i am not ?! " HAHAHAHAHA nuuh still , im fvuking tired . :P &&& bebual sendiri banyak banyak next time . HAHAHAHAHA .

Eh i seram or what ade stalker ? HAHAHA okehh bye .

I guess if we relied on other people to make us happy, we would spend alot of time feeling sad.

sometimes i wonder ....

2010-12-04T12:55:00.007+08:00

Rainy december . My appetite getting worst . More junks . HAHAHAHA ermm I need new job . Im sick and tired of everything . psft . Please . It may have just been a moment to you , but it changed every single one that followed for me . sighs ... Disconcerted .

I guess , from now on , i will expect nothing and just go with whatever flow . Its better off this way right ? It's gonna hurt less . You have her . ~~You have me~~ . You're happy with her . So yeah . ~~You've seen the difference already~~ . I don't talk much .

Okehh , i don't know what to blog . I'm sleepy and grumpy and i've got work to do tskk . I can't stand small kids currently . I feel like glue-ing everybody's mouth hahahahaha okehh teeeeeeeeeeett . Byeeeeeeees .

The hottest love has the coldest ....

2010-12-01T09:35:00.003+08:00

ade setan kat blkg . HEH

I start to think there really is no cure for depression , that happiness is an ongoing battle , and i wonder if it isnt one i'll have to fight as long as i live . I wonder if its worth it .

I'm sorry for a lot of things , but most of all that i never got the chance to tell you that no matter what happens next i'll never be anything but grateful for every moment i spent with you and eventhough i keep fumbling for the right words , all i want to say is thankyou .

more than just ...

2010-11-24T08:29:00.005+08:00

i hate it when someone to ask cheerfully how you are when they know you are feeling super fvuking like hell and expect you to say " im fine " . psft . Its just too much to procrastinate . Okehh bye .

everytime you talk to me ..

2010-11-21T20:34:00.007+08:00

I'll keep on pretending , pretending and pretending . I'll let myself look happy , happy with a secret . Be it . Its better to be unhappy alone . &&& Ohh , i don't know what to blog now . I'm at my lowest currently . Its raining currently and i felt like the sky is pouring as much as i wanted to cry . Thanks for the truth . Only if you know i'm hurt eventhough i gave a decent cheerful respond .

Sorry for the lack of update . I've been updating in my tumblr . I feel safe there . Happy finding . bye .

Behind every beautiful thing , there's been some kind of pain .

i miss ...

2010-11-16T12:43:00.006+08:00

Sometimes , you must get it wrong before you can get it right . Its not what look at that matters , its what you see . Sometimes i get quiet all of sudden , that's when there's million and one thing going through my mind . okehh bye .

vhaaaatt a dayy dahhh

2010-11-13T15:18:00.010+08:00

get well soon you both. :\

I'm so shagged . My yesterday starts with a boring routine which is waking up in the morning and to work -.- ahh banyak nye morning , i woke up late and am late to work HAHAHA and my trainees are being such a pain in my ass tskk patience . Meet Ann after work . We wore the same top , what a coincidence HAHAHA im vorried sick dahh bby , so so vorried dahh . You're so pale . Then off to teh-tarik . Meet-up mummy daddy and friends , cousin and friend , &&& HAHAHAHAHA KSM dokszxcxsxz !

I've realized girls tears only seem to fall when they don't know what they're gonna do anymore to try to be happy . They cry because they're fighting against those feelings that are telling them to let go , but knowing that if they let go , they might regret it . And they're just trying to figure out what's going to happen if they keep holding on , if they're willing to go through with all the pain that's needed just to keep fighting .

okehh byyyyyyyyyyyye earths !

We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.

Happy 20th Birthday

2010-11-11T09:16:00.006+08:00

ryan . dee . katak

My Pesta Muda Mudi Night was awesomezxcxsxz baby . Forever and Always . Especially after so long , finally get to meet KATAK . Great . Happy Birthday KATAK . I am so in deep trouble right ? I know lahh sayang adik kamu yang ini . Promise you lahh will story story what telah happen pade diri ini cheeeett HAHAHA nothing to story sia -.- alamakk kene ketuk kepale tadi thanks uhh HAHAHA ohh i so the miss you the very much lahh . Its been so long kite hug ketawe all . You belai belai my rambut You manja manja make me feel protected , like your little sister . HEHE i miss all those leii . But atleast i got all that from you on your birthday itself , feel so honoured to celebrate and get wasted together HAHAHAHA Adik kamu yang ini sudah besar tau kene ingat :P okehh you free already now , can meet and party like last time YAY ! ^^

I havent figured it out yet , I havent figured you out yet , but once i do i think i might fall in love with you . Sometimes , truth isnt good enough . Sometimes people deserve more . Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded . Okehhhh byyyyeeess !

Madokk Sampai Morning.

2010-11-04T14:59:00.010+08:00

cute.

Its on Hiatus. Pandai eh korang, cannot get through me then flood my FB inbox eh HAHAHAHA malas i nak reply. MAAFIN GUE DONG ;] Look down, When was my last update ? okehhh teeeeeeeeett ! ^^

Ermm, yeah sorry, i won't be updating this lame diary of mine too often now, been busy working and coming home late. HEH That's the reason why i private this blog. There's nothing for you to read dong HAHAHAHA :P

Can contact still through FB. Abehh kalau ramai tak percaye i single how ? -.- Nak kene terajang or what ? cheeeeeeeett, random. HAHAHAHA Okehh bye. Text me anything.

Sometimes, It is your friends who make your world.

Last Minute Meetup at Hometown Day.

2010-10-09T07:46:00.007+08:00

After all, we're only human. Always fighting what we're feeling, get hurt instead of healing. I am not here either to blame anybody or myself. Humans have feelings that can't be avoided. I will appreciate if you tell me things honestly rather than i get to know things by myself. I know your intention was good. End.

I am still trying to take things easy here. The 'old problem' has yet to be settled. Much sacrifices needed. My level of patience is not as high as before. I am in a total stress condition. I get depressed easily, I get too sensitive, I breakdown easily too nowadays. I swear. Ohh god, bring me happiness soon. Amin.

The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.

Muhammad Shairulnizam

2010-10-06T02:57:00.006+08:00

main focus :- my little brother

I suddenly miss my little brother damn much. I miss going out with him. I miss scolding him. I miss talking crap with him. I miss joking with him. I miss arguing with him. I miss laughing about some lame things. I miss his smiles with his dimple. -.- I miss everything alright about us. I've been coming back to my jurong house. Alright, see you prettyhandsome soon little brother. I heard you are getting naughtier as days goes by. You are so gonna get it from me ASS. heh.

I think i had to protect myself from myself, from that little girl inside still looking for a happy ending. I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once. Please anybody, reassure me that everything is gonna be fine. Ohh for goodness sake, Be strong B I T C H ! okehh byyyyyyye earths.

If one day you realize that i haven't been talking to you in a while, just don't stop remembering that i'll love you everyday and always.

alwaysthesamefeelings.

2010-10-04T04:50:00.004+08:00

I never know what to say to you when you asked me what's wrong. How can i tell you that you're all i want, and knowing that i can't bear looking at her being around you tears me apart. Am i wrong to feel this way ? Am i wrong if i am full with insecurities ? Sometimes i've tried not to care in a way for me not to get hurt. But i failed ? Its just so hard.

Do you know, what was i thinking most of my time ? i was thinking that we are not even together and yet your every action and words is causing such a big impact on my emotions. Even worst, you're becoming even a bigger part in me. My fault ? :\

For sweetest bbyg, i am not leaving you, no intention of me leaving you, i want to be there, its just that i need to give me some space because i am tired of shedding my tears every time i see you with your condition. I may have laugh and smile together but its hurts somehow when actually i felt sorry and all i want to say is sorry. I am not as strong as you can see. I am having war with my own thoughts and feelings.

im done. byyyyyyyyyyyyyyes !

Sesungguhnya aku takut akan kehilanganmu, Sedangkan kita tahu dirinya masih menyayangi dirimu.

tak mampu menghindar ♥

2010-10-03T03:06:00.009+08:00

I don't know why and i don't understand why i have to bother about this stupid feelings. But on the other hand i can't blame myself for feeling all this because i trust what my eyes see even if its beyond your observation. Sometimes, to love someone is uncontrollably easy. All it takes is just a glance and it will open a floodgate of emotions.

Ermm ohh yahh, I can't seem to find any reasons of why nowadays, its hard for me to finish up my meals. I could just take a few bites and yeah i'm done. I am supposed to eat a lot whenever something bothers me or likewise when i am happy. S T U P I D G I R L ! Okehh byyyyyyyyyyyyyes !

Telah ku cuba melarikan diri. Seandainya prasaan itu akan hadir. Kerna tak menginginkan kau melihat titisan airmata yang akan jatuh.

Moment Of Truth.

2010-09-29T05:51:00.006+08:00

Hello, enough of the tears being shed today ? hmm, Seriously, i have to believe in something right now because without hope, i feel like dying. But i still believes in " when real people fall down in life, they get back up and keep on walking ". I have so many reasonable reasons of why i am hating J A N T A N S damn alot. So, stop asking why i change alright to all my boyfriends out there.

For her,

I promise i'll always be there for you. Your hurts are my Hurts too. I won't be able to forgive myself if something were to happen to you again after this. You're all i care now till you regain from all this darkness that you're suffering. Seriously, I AM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING. I am sorry for not being strong in times like this. Looking at your condition makes me go weaker, bby. But i will tell myself to be strong, for you. Ohh Allah, please lighten the burden she's been suffering throughout her life. Amin.

Lastly,

Thank You babies, SQ and SNR (figure out yourself). Iloveyoualways.

2010-09-28T03:23:00.015+08:00

You're missed. Meet up soon loves.

Relieved after talking to that friendly uncle who is a stranger to me earlier. Thanks uncle, i know you won't feel what i am feeling but you seem to understand what i am trying to say and express though i screw up my phrases kinda weird but never mind i felt better. As mention before i am not good at either sharing or expressing tskk &&& lastly, i get annoyed by him for calling me SUCI. -.- Who the hell SUCI is ? Banyak kali repeat MiMiE but he still call me SUCI -.- psft funny ahh you uncle, i macam nak pekik kat telinge you tau HAHAHAHA okehh teeeeeeeeeett.

Big brother promised to bring me to MINT MUSEUM OF TOYS. yay. I can't wait.

Abang belanja NYEEHEHEHEHS Pretty soon please.

okehh byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyes.

Merantau bersama bbyG day.

2010-09-27T23:25:00.020+08:00

a gift for myself

I laugh hysterically moment i sign-ed in to my plurk account. why ? because my karma decreased till Z E R O hahaha last i remember my karma was 70+ HAHAHA Thanks to rya for reminding me that i have plurk the moment you changed back to plurk HAHAHA Konon nye dulu nak stop plurking sekejap, end up sampai terlupe HEH. Alright i'll start from the start okehh BOReeeeeeeeeeNG :/

Spent my day greatly with rya eventhough its kinda tiring HEH Forever dating alright we both. I had my NASI BRIYANI alright. Thanks bby for accompany-ing me fulfill my craving :] Lucky me you tak jentik bontot i ehh b sebab tak habis HAHAHA then jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh non-stop ! Ehh ade one minute silent moment jugak. cheeeeett HEH tetap I'LL TRY MY BEST TO MAKE ALL THE PARTS THAT WE FIND TOGETHER, HAPPY. I WANT BEAUTIFUL DAYS BY OUR SIDE B. Iloveyouforeverandalways.

I'm stuck somewhere. I wish i could share everything that bothers me. There's too many problems attacking till it all stucked and nothing came out the moment i wanted to share, one after another. Ohh for goodness sake, give me a break. Most of the time i totally agree with what some say " whenever people don't express themselves, they die one piece at a time ". DAMMIT !

Okehh alright, let's not deny the fact that i am used to keeping it to myself. psft. Just say whatever you want, i shall stay the way i am, i don't give a damn and i won't accept no one's definition of my life. Yeah stubborn. Like i told girlfriend, KILL ME PLEASE !

Its really amazing, just how much pain human heart can take right ? The heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of. Sometimes we waste our words, we waste our moments and we don't take time seriously to say things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.

SNR, I don't know how to tell you already, i miss you badly. I can nangis y'know. tskk Insecurities poisoning me every single minutes and seconds. Pray for me to be strong and kill the negatives thinking in me bby because i am so weak alone and i can't bear to feel all this. It hurts the both of us, i know. No need to remind, you should know i always love you.

Bottom line,

I talk too much ! This post getting longer already, i want to diam &&& i want more ROSES please HAHAHA okehh byyyyyyyye earths.

shagged.

2010-09-26T15:53:00.007+08:00

Yesterday's story. Mummy Big brother and Smallsister starts my day with a belated birthday surprise :] Thankyou precious. Then later in the evening, continue my day with the 315-ians for raya outing . As usual, the only girl. HAHAHA There's still houses yet to be visited. Most prob will continue our journey next week. Alright, i am so tired and feeling so grumpy currently. I miss girlfriend already lahh. tskk I love you SNR.

Ohh yahh, i think i'm starting to love roses. Idk since when i start to love flowers -.- esp sunflower ! i so hate sunflower many many okehh *haaaaakkpuiiyy* but seriously every time i saw roses nowadays, i'll surely think of getting it tskk Ohh my, i think i should get some for myself ? so cute eh perangai cheeett HEH or anybody care to surprise me with roses ? HAHAHAHA kidding &&& yeah i am craving for NASI BRIYANI waahhhpiaaaaangg !

ermm, ibu bought me a snowhite pyjamus as a gift. So cute. Its been longed, i get snowhite stuff from ibu. HEH okehh done nak tidur balik. Byyyyyyyyyyye earths. Pictures all in Fb.

Gets younger.

2010-09-24T01:34:00.010+08:00

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y T O M E :]

I celebrate it all in advanced with different cliques. Thankyou all. I have nothing else to say as i am super shocked and happy. Ohh come on, im just 13 this year super FCUKING underage girl HEHEHE ^^ byyyyyyyyyyes.

SINCE WE WERE YOUNG...

2010-09-21T03:41:00.006+08:00

" ...Because we watch us grow to a fine swan, seen each other flaws and all. That's why.. "

I love my babies. Sadly to say, its supposed to be 9 but its okehh we 7 still stay as strong as the 9. I love the strong bonds that never breaks from young till now. I hate the part where we have to be apart. Friendship till eternity. byyyyyes.

I have to believe in something right now because without hope, i won't be able to breathe.

injuries everywhere.

2010-09-14T04:32:00.006+08:00

Let’s face it, no matter how much you tell yourself you’re over someone, your heart knows the truth. Honesty is not synonymous with truth. As mention before, If talk is cheap, then my silence is diamonds. Okehh, down. Don't bother because i won't bother you alright ? Find me like you've always do when you're fine. I hearts you, baby. Byyyyyyyyyyyes.

Happy Syawal.

2010-09-12T02:08:00.004+08:00

So my first day turns out to be Blue. Second day turns out to be BlackGreyWhite. And yeah as mention in my previous post that i've got this mood where i don't feel any excitement for R A Y A and i did try to get into the mood. So yeah, despite having so much fun i still can't fit myself into the raya mood. Idk why tskk. Okehh Im tired need my sleep later cousins coming over. HAHAHAHA best nye ! Byyyyyyyyyyyyyye earths.

SALAM AIDILFITRI.

2010-09-10T02:14:00.005+08:00

HAPPY LEBARAN TO ALL :>

andai ku tersilap, ku mohon keampunan. andai kau tersilap ku memaafkan.

Spent my wholeday yesterday with sister rotting at home busy with housekeeping -.- SO BUSSYYY ! &&& Weird thing is i've just got this feeling where I don't feel any excitement for raya. tskk idk why. Nevermind, i'm still trying to get into the mood. Wish me luck. Okehh byyyyyyyyye earths !

SITI QAMARIAH.

2010-09-07T04:22:00.002+08:00

I always thought that there was this one perfect person for everybody in the world, you know, and when you found that person the rest of the world kind of magically faded away, and, you know, the two of you would just be inside this kind of protective bubble, but there is no bubble, I mean if there is you have to make it, I just think life is more than a series of moments, you know, we can make choices, and we can choose to protect the people we love, and that’s what makes us who we are and those are the real memories.

Repeated, remember that i'm always here by your side.

A D T R.

2010-09-05T02:20:00.004+08:00

A day to remember yesterday at work. Hectic. I love the concern I love the care I love the person who i've missed so much 'timbul' yet never talk I love everybody's "so ciyaaaalakk today" I love the togetherness I love the laughter I love the clumsiness I love the sad stories I love the stupid rumuors made I love the busy-ness I love the tired-ness I love the sleepy-ness . Shhhhiiiiiit. I love it.

I need to sleep nak klua later. M O O D S W I N G beware ehh. byyyyyyyyye.

I get angsty because i care.

2010-09-04T01:58:00.006+08:00

Hi, I want to see you badly. I miss you badly.

I loved her for her gentleness. I loved her for being an amazing catch, yet vulnerable enough to be insecure. But most of all, I loved her for loving me.

Ohh sometimes, I feel more comfortable talking to strangers than people I know sometimes. Perhaps this is because I’ll probably never see them ever again and I feel like I can say anything I want. They don’t know my past or what I’ve done. They can only judge me on who they’re seeing right at that very moment. I am the person I am now, not then. Some people I know don’t see the difference.

Okehh that's it i've yet to catch some sleep. I have to work later. FULLSHIFT ? Damn it. Byyyye earths.

Look after my heart, I’ve left it with you.

Hello September, hi coming 24th :]

2010-09-02T10:27:00.006+08:00

That was yesterday.

Spending the beginning of my super precious month and had a blast with them at geylang.

More picas in fb. C:

___________

Forget for a minute what the real world looks like. Forget what you know, because sometimes you need to believe in what isn’t exactly there. A daydream of better nights. A storybook fantasy where life is ordered and consistent and tales get awfully exciting before they wrap up nicely for all involved. Who are we to enforce reality? After all, you never know when the good angel of fortune might bring a page from your book to life and throw a kind of miracle your way.

okeehhhh byyyyyyye !

P.s :- I miss you more each day,bby.

L O S T S O M E W H E R E

2010-09-01T00:10:00.006+08:00

You’re still alive and someone out there loves you more than you know, even on the days you can’t love yourself there is someone in this world that is made especially for you and will love you when you can’t love yourself. Shit like that should just make you smile, because eventually you’ll find that one person who pulls you aways from all your bitter jaded thoughts, and their love makes it possible for you to appreciate everything and just be happy.

Sometimes late at night I think about all the things that have been, all the things that haven’t been and all the things yet to be. I wonder if this world will ever make sense to me, if I will ever truly understand anything… and if there’s really anything to understand at all.

There are times when I want nothing more than to look you in the eyes, because it’s when we’re looking at each other in silence that we end up saying the most.

There’s some things I regret, some words I wish had gone unsaid. Some starts that had some bitter endings. There’s some mistakes that I have made, some chances I just threw away. But there were lessons learnt.

Okehh byyye earths !

2010-08-29T06:59:00.003+08:00

I sometimes think that people’s hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows what’s at the bottom. All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface every once in a while.

& I think the next time my heart breaks, there will be nothing left to put back together! I’m like a cat with only one more life left. Once its gone, there’s not gonna be anything left of me but an empty shell.

Because for me, it’s always been you; always. I’ve tried to fight it and I’ve tried to deny it but I can’t. You’re undeniable. byyyyyyyes.

P.s :-
i wanted you but you want more.

2010-08-11T01:42:00.005+08:00

Ohh this is terribly hurt. Thankyou for hacking into my msn and delete all contacts :'( Ohh ppl no more me in your Msn list. Thank you to whom it may concern. :'( You really gone too far haaaixx Nevermind im still here with my patience. If you think that your action makes you happy im fine with it. Do what you want. I wont be surprised if my fb is deactivated one day. Da puas bilang okehh hmmm.

The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.

P.s :-
mimie_meow@hotmail.com

2010-08-08T02:51:00.005+08:00

Im pissed with myself. Im pissed with you people. I am referring to many characters here. Hmmm I am not your doll and you people are the reasons of me changing. Having moodswings and stuff, not tolerating any shits even some small stupids shits. The level of patience i had now is not as high as before. So jolly well dont come near me just to tell me off and stop asking why am i behaving so weirdly now hmmm without noticing i am who i am because of you. SNFS now is not the SNFS you know in the past. I change, i know. Too much to procrastinate.

Don’t go when I push you away. My actions don't actually mean it. Its times like that when I need you most. ily ♥

P.s
I want the truth. :'(

2010-08-07T02:28:00.001+08:00

I feel like crap now. All the thoughts in my head are getting overwhelming, and I’m struggling to hold my tears back.

P.s
I L O V E Y O U.

2010-08-05T16:00:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we waste our words and we waste our moments and we dont take the time to say things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.

P.s
I LOVE YOU.

Please dont again :))

2010-07-27T14:47:00.003+08:00

random

Ohh my this is bad, they say my colours is starting to disappear again. I'd just regain it few days back and i am V V V V happy about it, the mood were all there, the cheerful moments that i've always brought to anywhere were there too i can feel it everybody can feel that too and now disappearing again ?

Ohh colours in me please don't go again i wouldnt want to look pale and sick. SO WEAK. I wouldnt want to depend on make ups most of my time and look fake even if im using it lightly still its not N A T U R A L tsk. You're making my life miserable and making everybody worried sick. Ohh come on, im okehh :D

I promise to take good care of myself as long as you, colours don't go :D I need you badly colours !

Bottome line,

Snowhite is having war with her own feelings. Snowhite wont let anything to bring her down again. Not to forget, being patience wont make you loose anything it makes you grow stronger alright So please learn to be one. Thankyou and Goodbye earths.

Forget to forget.

2010-07-25T03:03:00.005+08:00

I love my jobs but i think i am getting tired already. I am starting to neglect my health and ohh not to forget the beauty part tsk You people been bragging me to do something with my eyebags -.- Ohh come on i've yet to have enough sleep alright. HAHAHA wait till i sleep like a PIG lahh okehh &&& i cant promise you people that this 100kg eyebags will defunct ;) Tetap tak pretty lahh this girl -.-

Ehh sedey or what i punye ZAFIRAH and SYAFIQAH tak sayang i :'( Nak cry uhh HAHAHA cheyy crapstick betul &&& mampus i put their REAL NAME confirm kene chopchop head HAHAHA fake :D maafkan patik korangs Im in love with the names HEH tak sayang tak mengape i still have i punye RAIHANA alright :D Y A Y ! Takpe still sayang all I tak jahat Awwwww. &&& not to forget my SUNGMIN and LEETEUK okehh Still in my heart ♥

Okehh i nak chat same i punye RAIHANA. byye earths.

Malam berganti Siang Mendatang

2010-07-23T01:44:00.008+08:00

Its the tragedy of loving, you cant love anything more than something you miss. You dont need as much strength as understanding to let go of someone. Understanding that things will fall into places eventually, understanding that you'll eventually meet the one who makes you happy, and that, this too shall pass.

Y A Y Dapat hug dari i punye chomel and fiq yesterday :DDDDD Tapi tak dapat hug i punye RAIHANA. Dier naik train balek sodehhh cheyyy. But nevermind winkwink nye tkmu lepas ehh HAHAHA :P Aawww sayang i punye chomel fiq dengan an ! :D Alright I want call them 3 little musketeers Okehh set :D But fiq malu malu tsk :P Nehmind ♥

Alright had fun at ST JAMES. No pictures taken this time digicam lupe dehh -.- But one irritating issue is when those who misunderstood me and NIK gosh we are just friends people ohh come on psft. Sorry bbg's for not joining you girls in Zirca / Rebel and others in Zouk next time alright ? Still got time dearest ♥

Lastly, i don't know if i am getting better or i'm used to the pain i had already whatever it is i am moving on. Okehh saye punye RAIHANA sudah biseng HAHAHAHA saya harus tidur.

okehh wait,

i miss those ladies above. Ryaa and myself :'( byyye earths !

comebackcolours, PLEASE.

2010-07-19T03:20:00.004+08:00

Sungmin ♥ But i using Leeteuk's name ? Aawww im not ditching you my dear Sungmin. Am just attracted to his name that's all. I love you forever dear HAHAHA cheyy, feeling kann budaknie tsktsktsk

Ohh chomel and friends i rindu korangskorangs too HAHAHA esp Fiq ? You've been missing me tapi i lupe you Awwwww sorry tak sengaje cheyy DIAM so sweet dong korangs HAHAHA Meet you guys prettyhandsome soon alright babies ♥

I still don't know if im getting better but its ok. Lets live life to the fullest. Don't regret the past, just learn from it :)) Ohh lastly,

Colours of me, i want you back P L E A S E, i can't stand depending on makeups already I HATE LOOKING FAKE ! and at the same time I HATE LOOKING AS PALE AS A CORPSE ! byyyes.

goodgirlturnbad

2010-07-16T02:35:00.004+08:00

I dont know whether i am getting better. But i assure that i am super down. Total disappointed with things that happened recently. I am becoming an INDOCILE person. I continue being a junkie, get high and shits. Health got worst but still i go PUNKROCK and neglect it. Ohh dearest mimie please say no to that attitude Please ! :'( Someone tell me that you care can ? ily. Ohh G, am totally disconcerted.

You said if i need someone to talk to, you'll be there. You said if im down, you'll be there. blahblahblah so much of "you'll be there" &&& where are you now ? SO much of giving me hopes giving me advices and stuffs. Thankyou. Maybe you didnt realize it but that's the fact alright. I know you're having problems but what's your silent motive ? tsk idk lahh i hope you're doing fine and i want you to know that i am not fine. I need someone only if you care, i company myself by doing stupid shits after your silent. :'(

lastly, hopefully that cheeky DW wont be attched to my place again *crossfinger* Go away lahh Can't he see that im avoiding him, so obvious siaa haiyo ! Open your eyes bigbig lah you FCKING YP MATREP ahh kann, alright enough already byyyyyyes !

disconcerted.

2010-07-14T01:22:00.003+08:00

Its overused. Its cliche. Its corny. Its just a line. Its always too abrupt. Its never on cue. Its difficult to say. It will be held against you. Its too bold. Its often too pathetic. Its amazing how after everything, "i love you" still works.

I am constantly stuck in this place, in between my future and my past and I’m not sure which one I want more. Most of the time, part of me just wants to throw myself into the future and the other part wants me to hurl myself into my past.

&&& To you, i think you owe me an explanation. I can't find any reasons why you left me with lots and lots of questionmarks. byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyes.

jom nyanyinyanyi

2010-07-06T04:27:00.005+08:00

Dimana Cintamu Yang Sebenar.

Hi, that was yesterday, sorry lahh kalau tak sedap kiter bukan professional pon blueck Both were lazy to play the guitar so we asked MR MYSTERY to play cheyy HAHAHA We don't need any comments. Ohh my eyebags, okehh shuts ! :D

I rindu b already. Make sure i dapat hug lagi tau next meet :D please thankyou b. Ohh ya, I am being such an A S S H O L E towards b last two days Sorry okehh dear I feel so distracted and idk why and idk what am i thinking too. Alright byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyes.

Distracted

2010-07-05T01:06:00.003+08:00

Hi earths.

Laugh when you can, apologize when you should. Know that grudges are a waste of happiness. Let go of what you cannot change. Love deeply, forgive quickly, take some chances. Give all you have got. Always try to take things in your stride and smile when you’re feeling sad. Remember what you’ve got but also love and cherish what you have now. Give all that you have, because life is too short to be anything else but happy.

Okehh byyyyyyyyyyyyyyes.

FORGIVEandFORGET

2010-07-02T02:50:00.005+08:00

I wanted everything to stay but that is super I M P O S S I B L E because people do change and feelings do fade too.

I hate the feelings of being stucked somewhere. It sucks totally. You start out life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later, there comes a time when you look back at where you have been and wonder who you really are.

I am super shagged. Received a tight schedule -.- Ohh my. I am being the most craziest talkative and insane girl towards b HAHAHA sorry ehh b. okehh byyyyyes !

workworkwork

2010-06-27T05:24:00.010+08:00

Heyy earths, just a short update alright as to clean up some dust here HAHAHA I am sorry for leaving this blogger so dusty and dead. I am not going to share anything during my m.i.a as i am trying to move on. Maybe some might know what happen lahh but not all alright. Im doing nothing besides making myself busy with work work and work. I think that's the best way for me to forget all the misery i received recently.

Tumblr updated but not mutiply :D Still no time HAHAHA.

Nothing was ever going to be ordinary or the same again. You could patch up whatever was broken, but if you were the one who had fixed it, you’d always know in your heart where the fault lines lay.

i love my b. Ehh wait, but he got two girlfriend liaow HAHAHA okehh bye !

ABANGf

2010-06-23T03:39:00.003+08:00

Hello earths. I'll be back soon. I'm stucked somewhere.

Al-Fatehah

2010-05-30T11:18:00.006+08:00

Its on hiatus as i am still not over what happened. I am still trying to bring myself up and am still learning to accept everything. I am in total paranoid state.

Grandmummy, i get your msg through my dreams but its totally I M P O S S I B L E for me to grant it now, i am so sorry grandmummy. "maafkan mimie ibu" All our family members knows what you've been wishing for. Infact, its been years alright. I hope your other grandchilds would help you grant it fast. Insya'allah amin.

Thanks to those who understands my changes nowadays and sorry to those who don't. I need more more more more more time. Its not easy. Not not easy. Orang yang takde hati dan persaan jerr yang tak rase pape tsk.

As for you, i have nothing else to say, but you're just making my life harder with all your nonsense. Stop being a slag will you ? I don't understand why others can understand my state when you can't. Why ? ohh its simply because you've never try, Don't tell me you've tried, you are just showing it off. YOU NEVER TRY. Im no longer a young kid alright. Are you a grown up or not ? tsk Please don't go blaming me back for all this I am tired of those already.

Bottomline,

i am quiet and i think im quitting E V E R Y T H I N G. My life my mind is all disturbed. Such a terrible Breakdowns. Text me. byyyyyes.

SCRAMBLE

2010-05-21T05:28:00.009+08:00

i want things to be more than okay

Saye ditinggalkan sendirian HAHAHA cheyy, bby knock off without telling me. tsk Sedehh or what. He make me wait for hours y'know HAIYO ! I knock his head than you know HAHAHA Macam paham only :D Nevermind la, later he working morning shift. See, mimie very understanding cheyy, mintak kene sey-pak je budak nie. HAHAHA

Been making myself busy playing scramble. HAHAHA thanks sister im addicted to it -.- A S S. My nails are in yellow and purple. L A W A L A W A L A W A saye like sekali :D Eleeeh, tak work off day boleh la paint paint HAHAHA Sodehh, one day only tomorrow have to remove already. Working lahh cannot paint nails~ tsk I R R I T A T I N G

Ohh my, i think i got sleeping disorders uhh tsk. VVV irritating &&& I am starting to hate my current work already, idk why please don't ask. Its not that something bad had happened or what. Nothing happen at work, everybody is happy and in good terms its just that i don't know why alright. Nevermind, lets put it aside. &&& Ohh Ohh , i miss my previous previous work. "RABAK SIA KAU MIMIE, PENG TEMPAT LAEN" HAHAHA sorry la korangs saye mau carik experience HAHAHA -.-

Ohh ya i remembered something, i laugh my A S S out once i got to know "she" and "he" contacted HAHAHA ohh my i am so bad, really. All i can say is GOOD LUCK to you girl HAHAHA Im loving this. :D Badan jerr besar otak kecik Oppps ! Sorry, Saye very Bad because you deserve to be treated this way by me alright :D Sister, bby and some of you guys may know what i am talking about HAHAHA

Ehh my voice still not okehh lahh tsk Suare ohh Suare cepat la datang balek. I nak sing sing la. Bby always laugh at me. A S S H O L E him. HAHAHA Nevermind Patient is a virtue right ? cheyy,

Alright atleast saye sudah update. Takmo biseng biseng lagi ehh HAHAHAHA ehh wait, Ade orang tuhh biseng but blog sendiri tak update sey-pak nak ? You know who you are. :P HAHAHA Alright byyyyyyyyyyyes.

HappynotHappy.

2010-05-17T05:30:00.004+08:00

I love working yesterday. Everybody seems so happy and enthusiastic even times when customers were at their suckish attitude but we were still in our high spirited mood. Laughing, giggling like nobody business, joking around, running around and so on. But one suckish thing that has happened is my prepaid gone low. Thanks to that unknown number lorh HAHAHA Alright, hoping that yesterday's mood will remain unchanged for today. Wish me luck earths :D

Ehh when can i get back my voice ? tsk So irritating y'know. Badan kecik suare like jantan HAHAHA Byyyyyyye.

ilovemytumblr.

2010-05-14T21:18:00.007+08:00

Hi Low earthlings ! i am sorry again for the lack of updates alright due to busy working and been feeling so down and sick :S &&& I've just got home and had my medicine and it sucks, like totally. I had my medicine with Orange juice. HAHAHA Its a habit from young actually :D Will knock off prettyhandsome soon because all my medicine cause drowsiness Ohh my but let me finish up this update first alright. Mummy treat me a RAMLY BURGER at pasar malam nearby since i am craving for it eventhough i can't taste anything WTH i know HAHAHA Tekak orang saket like orang mengandung sometimes HAHAHA

Ohh ya, been spending time with my BestGF whoelse if its not RYABELLE :D Catch a movie together, "THE BACKUP PLAN" few days back after my work, sweet whooi sit at couple sit sumore HAHAHA I am supposingly on fullshift but something happen and it disturbed me terribly till i can't concentrate and its best that i end it early Hmmm Thanks GF atleast you make my day. *hugs* &&&

Yesterday me and ryaa do meet ups at woodland with Nasya first, sungguh ku tak mengenali dan mengingati siapa si nasya iye KAKAK RYAA HAHAHA then meet Chomel and the rest at usual place, cheyy HAHAHA. Pity chomel kwang3 Those who were there knows what i mean HAHAHA :D Saket saket pon merayap ehh si KAKAK MIMIE nie HAHAHA *slaps forehead*

Meet bby up ealier and he sent me to the clinic before he's off to work Aaaaw so sweet thank you so much boyfriend ILYSM ! :D Ehh last two days we rempuh hujan same same uhh Ohh my, HAHAHA cheyy, tak perlu ehh mimie HAHAHA ssshhh~

I had a short conversation with KAK EKYN earlier in MSN :D Quite shocking, **** is serving NS currently -.- &&& Kak ekyn, sorry to say but you're wishing for the IMPOSSIBLE. Nevermind, i miss your kids la HAHAHA I think i'll drop by in no time. :D

Ohh, i think my medicine works on me already am feeling so drowsy already -.- Thanks to those who'd wished me for a fast recovery. Appreciated. Alright enough byyyye earths.

2010-05-09T20:30:00.004+08:00

hi SNAA here. for once im gonna update for SNFS. please catch up with me cos this is gonna be short and brief :]

what's so disgusted about the previous post? to me well to me lah right (not siding mimie just because im her sister) as long as there's no names been mentioned here there's nothing wrong with it . infact everybody goes with the same bloody rule : MY BLOG MY SAY . To those who knows very well what mimie's talking about or who she's referring to and are unhappy about what she'd posted, the best suggestion would be to stick your mind out of this bloody damn thing . you know who's right and who's wrong .you know who's the fire-starter and who's the victim. you know very well about whats been happening. and GOD bloody knows why you're so afraid of the truth.

you always say... "please lah, don't think for yourself" and such. but have you ever put yourself in her shoe or feel how she feels after knowing the truth? lain lah kalau kau tak berhati perut. Sorry to say , for a young adult to be behaving in such a way .... that is so pathetic and saddening.

so yea. I insisted for the previous post to remain. For that my sister have been insulted badly yet the ones who knows the truth seems to be keeping quiet about it and they thought thats the best solution . lol wtf merepeknye ._.

k dah bye.
xoxo
Lots of love,
SNAA

next ape ?

2010-05-05T10:08:00.008+08:00

Hello Lovelies

(>.<)

Firstly, sorry for privating this blog. I've just got my own reason. Totally disconcerted by you you you you and you. tsk IRRITATING But its ok, i won't choose revenge as a payback alright, i know what i'm doing. :D I'm still finding myself. Alright, this is an edited post. You're lucky enough if you get to read my previous update HAHAHA

Life is full with SARCASM lately. SPLIT PERSONALITIES been apart of me too. =.=

The secrets that i've been talking about previously has been revealed not fully though. But i am still having doubt to believe if thats the truth. I am already tired yet this issue makes me even more hectic plus confusing =.= Yaah, what do you expect TRUST IS LIKE A PAPER, ONCE ITS CRUSHED ITS CRUMPLED.

You know what , i feel like revealing who is this stupid bitches i was talking about. I feel like making her "famous" in cyber and i think she already thinks she's hot and well-known. =.= I feel like Slapping her. i feeI like Kicking her jubo. i feel like Killing her. Ehh not her only, dengan yang got related with this tuuh =.= Puki Taik Anjeng Binte Pak Mat Tempeh Kene Langgar Motor Car ! Fuck her arh ccb ! Geram la gondrong.

Likewise, do you have money to get yourself a mirror ? If yes, i suggest go get one alright A S S E S. Muke da tak lawa, mulot bau bangkai. Ubat gigi da expired ehh ? pity. Ohh lupe, i VVV kental. Kakak Kakak kental HAHAHA ehh salah Dorang la KAKAK =.= umor tak seberape nak feeling I R R I T pergi naek tingkat 100 and terjun sampai mampoooooooooooos ! (>.<) HANYA INGIN KAU TAHU.

Don't be pissed about the consequences when you're the one who created it. Why must you, the UNWILLING, lead the UNKNOWING, do the IMPOSSIBLE, for the benefit of the UNGRATEFUL ? I'm clueless. Dedicated to all haaaaaix. =.=

To that P E R E M P U A N S yang suci habeeeeeeeeeeees, go get yourself a new colgate or darlie or whatever brand you are using la alright, so you mouth won't stink tsktsktsk Nak bebual pasal Badan ? Tau Larh badan korang "baek" tapi da tkde harge buat ape ? MURAH ehh~ Euuuw. kesian alright. Too bad i am not free to entertain, kakak kakak work so i'll leave it to you P E R E M P U A N S to continue sampai la korang penat B O D O H. Sorry uhh i kental talk talk kat cyber HAHAHA Nak jumpe, tkde time and i don't think i'd wish to talk to you guys, busuk uhh mulot HAHAHA

Sorry to ignore korang who nudge me in msn without failing, thanks for the concern i appreciate it and im so sorry. blahblahblah

&&& Abang off to USA already, on the 1st may. We misses him DAMN much already. The most important person in my life existance and that scares me. And for the first time we are far apart that long. Haiyoo I pergi japan pon tak lame macam dier tau tsk This house feel so empty already, i bet sister will start spending her time with friends because i know she will feel lonely as i am busy working. Pity you la sister, will try to make time together like how we used to alright.

Spending our 3days straight together was great. Ohh we have each others back alright. Make a wise decision and i'll forever be with you. Kiter kan part-time Lesbo ehhh ? HAHAHA &&& we have to be strong always. I know you are I know i am We know ourselves :D

instant burger but brand BISCUIT ?

HAHAHA

I sacrifice my sleep just to wake up in the morning sampai tetido while otf-ing with bf, so i could go online and talk to brother and standby la nanti mimie work like a zombie later on. kwang3 He's in good condition. Alhamdulillah. Me and sister print screen alot of shots HAHAHA more pictures in FB. Muke busooook sehh, belom mandi what HAHAHA abang also haven't bath, because dier baru balek keje. Sini Pagi Sane Malam whaaaaat.

Alright Alright. I think i better get myself ready for work. Its raining Ohh my. Okehh Okehh Stay tune alright. I am too tired to do update more often now. &&& I do update more often in tumblr. Multiply ? Its dead, but gonna make it alive prettyhandsome soon. Byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyes.

Tellmeitsnotending

2010-04-27T03:28:00.013+08:00

irreplaceable ♥

Bby, tell me that we are still strong. Tell me that we are still together. Tell me that you still need me as much as i need you. Tell me that you still love me as much as i love you. Tell me that you miss me as much as i miss you. Tell me I'm not making mistake. Tell me that you're worth the wait. Tell me you're worth the patience. And that you're not going to leave me. Make me believe that i am making the right decision by still holding on. Show me that you're going to be around to catch me when i fall even if its I M P O S S I B L E.

When we first met, I didn't want to get involved with anyone which includes you. I didn't have the time or energy, i wasn't sure that i was ready for it as i have someone in mind that i could hardly forget. But you were so good to me and i got swept up in that. Little by little, day by day, i found myself falling in love with you with the biggest fear are you really up to be with me, still you convinced me with the sweet talks.

You know what i love the most about us? I love how comfortable we're with each other. I love how we can endlessly crack on each other but never take teasing to heart. I love how when i walk away trying to avoid you when we're fighting, you try to stay mad but always ended up running after me. I love you and everything about you. The looks in your eyes, the kisses, the smiles, those dimples, how we can stay up all night talking rubbish. I love how you call me and no matter my mood is, you try to calm things down. &&& most of all, i love how you love me.

I want to be the hard for you to forget. I want to have that kind of impact on you here you know you'll never find anyone who can take my place, and i want that because that's what you are to me. I want it to hurt like hell when you see me. I want you to feel what you put me through. There is no better lose than to lose myself in you.

But now, things just change suddenly where i'm stuck in between caring and not too caring at all. Everything's gone. My good motives has lead you into accusing. The sadden thing is i always try to give the best of my heart uncritically to you who hardly sees it and understand it. I hadn't asked this to happen. And suddenly, I'm hating myself for everything i ever felt for you. This relationship maybe for a short time but it feels like we filled out the empty years of knowing each other. My bad, i'm a weirdo and you still can't handle this.

I'm sorry for making you feel neglected where i didn't mean to. I'm sorry for ~~A L W A Y S~~ not being there when you needed me eventhough i've tried. Only if you know, i never stopped loving you, never ! I just stopped showing it. Why ? asked yourself. One reason to it is, you love to satisfy those "relationships wreckers" happy. I doubt you even realize it. Always asked yourself why. Please don't asked me for the answers.

I'll forgive you, but I will never forget the way you made me feel when you walked away. When you begin to miss me, don’t forget that you were the one who let me go. I think i better ends it here for now. As i can't turn to anybody who really worth to listen and i can't help myself but to cry. I am so gonna tucked my U B A T prettyhandsome soon. I am breaking a promise with my bestF "cock-a-doodle-boy" again. I'm truly sorry dear friend. :'(

Bby, i'll wait for your text or calls alright. I miss looking at the stars together.

B U D A K G E M O K cinta you dearest MKBH. ♥

lastly, get well soon dear sister please. I can't bear looking at you coughing while you're sleeping and your temperature is getting higher already ehh. tsk ily !

2010-04-22T03:21:00.005+08:00

irreplaceable ♥

I'll pray for your fast recovery alright dearest ? I am missing you like i don't know how to say already tsk Please don't feel neglected okehh ? Please, have a V good rest dear. I love you bby.

My prepaid is currently low DAMMIT. Will top up real sooon :D Ohh, i am looking forward to saturday :D Will be heeding to Jb with ibu sister and little cousins S H O P P I N G ? yay ! Ibu invited bby to tag along but such a waste that bby could not make it :( Nevermind, there's always next time right ?

To my A V I D readers ,

i am so so sorry for the lack of updates alright ? &&& yeah about the tagboard thingy, i am still considering. But i still think its best that my blog stays this way with no taggy. Peaceful Diary HAHAHA so so sorry. Archieves ? I prefer not to let you read those history. Sorry again :D Just go find ways la to read it. My sister ever thought me a way already HAHAHA V clever ehh you sister. Alright, There's still MSN right ? HAHAHAHA see you there la ppl kwang3.

Lastly, i shall leave this blog dead again till don't know when as mention earlier, i will be heeding to jb HAHAHA so just stay tune alright. Same goes to all my other accounts, it will be left with no update alright ? :D Alaarh pegi satu hari je da macam nak pegi lame gituuk HAHAHA okehh la budak gemok nie nak makan byyyyyyyyyyyye loves.

2010-04-19T00:57:00.009+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday MKBH

Hoping that you enjoy my "surprises" eventhough it turns out to be a t r a g i c day for you. May my "surprises" lightened abit of your mood after the a c c i d e n t. *hugs* Again plan was ruined. Nevermind, this is not what we wanted. If we know things gonna happen all this won't happen right ? :) &&& Stop blaming yourself for all this alright bby ? hmmm Get well soon aite dearest. i love you dear. please take good care of yourself.

More pictures in bby's FB. :D byyyye earths.

2010-04-17T18:42:00.012+08:00

A night out. Imran paitao -.- Saufi is not in the pictures above. More pictures in FB and MULTIPLY no edits :D

My tummy still feels the cramp due to lots of laughing on this particular issues. Blame sister and fauzie HAHAHA thanks sister for sharing HAHAHA caring is sharing ily sister HAHAHA i can't help it but to laugh my blast out even on the road kwang3 diam la. HAHAHA

Okehh enough im shagged. Too lazy to share Sorry KEPOS HAHAHA ehh, moodswings irritating ehh ? tsk okehh byyyyyyyyyyes !

2010-04-16T23:35:00.007+08:00

Firstly, let me apologise for the lack of updates HAHAHA i lazy la readers kwang3. Peace ! Ampun kan patik ehh tuan tuan dan puan puan ku WAAAAAAHAHAHA. okehh mepek. blueck.

I had dinner together with mummy and my younger siblings earlier &&& i ended up going back home with an empty stomach still. Hmmm SODEYYY ! why ? Because my MEE HOON GORENG turns out to be CHAOW TAR ! The taste is so awful even mummy and sister says that too. Hmmm.

BAD BAD BAD SERVICE.

Obviously it ruined my mood to eat anything after that eventhough i am still hungry tsk &&& now my stomach is having a parade competiton kehh kwang3 Mummy ordered MacD for me YAY ! Atleast something ^^ stupid sister she went out to meet her friends blueck. Okehh byyye, my meal is here Whoa super fast ! Its not even 30mins yipeee ! :DDDD

2010-04-13T09:01:00.006+08:00

Another plan ruined. Hmmm. As a make up for yesterday's plan , bby's plan is to have breakfast together after his work. Yes, he made an effort to wake me up and eventually i managed to wake up HAHAHA semangat what ~

The First unlucky thing that has happened is, bby's bike breakdown on his way to my place. Then he managed to get his brother to come down to help him out but unfortunately there's nothing they can do even after they make an effort to lend some tools from me hmmmm.

I was damn famished by then but i still insist on waiting for bby because he's famished too. Sehati sejiwe la konon nyer HAHAHA Hmmmm Pity us uhh HAHAHA perot da macam ade parade kehh sementare tunggu bby kwang3

Next, i wake big brothers up trying to ask for their help blahblahblahblah, but still brothers can do nothing because bby's tyre and break or what la idk la is locked tsk -.- and lastly brother instruct bby to send to the nearest workshop tsk &&& its obvious enough that our plan is being cancelled psft okehh nehmind.

The Next unlucky thing happened is bby got into A C C I D E N T tsk OMG ! i thought he was just joking because he don't sound serious while informing me kwang3 Even Fauzie, bby's friend don't believe that bby got into accident HAHAHA till he came down and meet us up -.- Lucky bby is not badly injured. tsk

Then waited for his brother to fetch me by father's car to poly sent bby for dressing, tsk the reason why i hate poly is because we could spent long hours waiting psft IRRITATING UHH. (>.<) LAPA GILER WHOOOI !! :'(( Off-ed to sembawang for our lunch cum breakfast , everyone was like " FUUH, ATLAST ! " kwang3. Next stop, Picked bby's sister up from work and sent her home then off-ed to meet the others at b.p, then HOME SWEET HOME.

Mummy daddy and big brothers questioned me about bby's condition like there's tomorrow once i reached home tsk OMG. All i replied is, " he's okehh la, i want to sleep, sesungguhnye patik ngantok -.- " Then end HAHAHA byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyye earths.

2010-04-12T03:01:00.008+08:00

My day starts with getting annoyed by bby's response when i tried to wake him up which is supposingly he wakes me up tsk. blahblahblah heed to SOUTHERN with bby in the afternoon to pay his bike instalment ehh ? Ntah laa. HAHAHA Ohh my Dior, i can burn myself okehh. tsk. Super Hot ! Then off to kelatan lane -.- Ahboyy (i think that's the spelling HAHAHA), then the next plan was to tucked our stomach with lunchcumbreakfast but unfortunately we met bby's friend there tsk and were asked to tagged along to somewhere which idk and the best part is bby agreed on tagging along -.- Ohh my GUCCI ! I am so famished by then y'know. Still, i smile. psft. We picked Fauzie at tenmile, because he don't want to go alone which is so the tak perlu kehh his prangai. -.- Blahblahblah Imran's _____(bike's part) broken during the journey to fetched fauzie. Another annoying part -.- &&& lastly, bby and Fauzie sent me to my gombak house after they planned to heed to HUA CHIN (idk, what's the spelling again -.-) because i've already have another plan with sister as i've already promised to accompany her.

Met sister at J.E, okehh im late kwang3. Sorry sister ! :D Heed to BUGIS. Bought for her SUPERMAN a birthday gift, had our meals at MacD, thought of eating at TON SENG as i am craving for its CHICKEN RICE -.- HAHAHA but it rains tsk then off to meet Boncet and Ayitt at ILUMA. Okehh the girl face tak perlu -.- Ohh whatever. Then blahblahblah to bugis street, lastly HOME SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET HOME. I am super shagged.

Ehh my update sound so typical boring ehh ? HAHAHA okehh diam.HAHAHA Byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyes.

2010-04-09T01:34:00.007+08:00

Spent my yesterday with that precious above, Ryaa. Heed to grandlink and karaoke-ed for 3hrs then had our dinner together at banquet. Chill and slacked for a shortwhile then home sweet home. Ehh wait, i get irritated on my way home after a split up with Ryaa. I bumped into a bunch of YP MATREPS (very typical one) at the traffic light. The annoying part is where they acts like an attention seeker, asking for my number (VERY TYPICAL WHAAAT) , and unfortunately we took the same train and the same cabin. Very irritating nak mampos binte nak mati tsk -.- Lucky enough that we did not alight at the same station pheeuw. :) Sorry for the improper update. I am totally hectic. Byyyes.

To KAKAK RYAAA , will pass you soon all the pictures and videos taken. Sorry ehh KAK kwang3. KAKAK seyy HAHAHA :DDDD

2010-04-07T03:48:00.005+08:00

Yaaaaay ! Thanks bby. After so long. Bby, I hoped by now you should realized it. (L) Muacks ! &&& you're too enticed for your 19th birthday. :DDDD Good luck dear bf HAHAHA byyyyyes.

Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be.

2010-04-02T19:51:00.006+08:00

Hello Earths, I am truly sorry for leaving this blog so dead and filled up with dust. tsk HAHAHAHA i've been doing updates in multiply and tumblr, because i get tired with blogger sometimes. Its been acting like an ASS. blueck !

Things been going up and down between me ad bby. Where i think there's some big midgetz with tiny little brains trying to turn our relationship into a convulated situation, i don't think bby realise that. hmm i'm a girl, i know what they are up to tsk &&& i repeat again, all this hullabaloo won't get better until you change and tell them off. I am keeping quiet here. I won't talk much okehh. Just wait and see what happend next la. -.- tsk ~~HOW I WISHED I COULD GO STAIGHT TO THEIR FACES AND TELL THEM OFF !~~ (>.<) but too bad la, tsk what a harrowing sitations. Feels like i am stuck in the middle of an intricate jungle. AAAAAAARGHH ! %^$ okehh stop it. I am fine, totally fine. psft

As for pipit, i am not sure if you're reading this, but i didn't mean to avoid you. I only needed time to be apart from you as i am still shocked &&& i am not prepared to face you even if i wear a mask. I think its best to choose distance for the both of us, for the time being. Because i think i have too much problems to handle. Hmmm. But i'll still be there whenever you need me. No worries. I watched those videos taken before and listen to your voice everytime before i sleep . I won't forget you la okehh. :DDD

byyyyyye earths !

2010-03-26T17:54:00.003+08:00

I feel more comfortable talking to strangers than people I know sometimes. Perhaps this is because I’ll probably never see them ever again and I feel like I can say anything I want. They don’t know my past or what I’ve done. They can only judge me on who they’re seeing right at that very moment. I am the person I am now, not then. Some people I know don’t see the difference.

memorable day

2010-03-24T00:16:00.006+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

GOOD LUCK IN YOUR FUTURE ENDEAVOURS.

imy twinny. imy sister. ilya.

Hope you had a great time. &&& i bet, this is the best birthday present so far, ONE FAMILY. You happy, I happy, They happy, EVERYBODY happy. Though we are far apart, i'll still love you no matter what. May it'll last till forever. May we'll reunite as one again like before. Insya'allah. &&& you're so old already ! hahaha.

byyyyes !

Expect the unexpected.

2010-03-23T17:38:00.005+08:00

Few days back which i cant remember exactly when, three unknown y.ps approach me. Only one do the talkings.

unknown : Ehh, ni mimie kan ?

mimie : ahh ye, kenape ? *muke macam nampak monster*

unknown : tkde, ily tau !

mimie : huh ? sorry, salah orang ehh ? *muke 1 dollar 50sen*

unknown : No. cute. ily la.

train arrived.

mimie : huh ? thanks. i gtg. tc !

How ? Seram not ? hahaha. The train saved me somehow. hahaha ! Idk what's my expression after that kehh. kwang3~ She really like frighten me somehow. tsktsktsk. Macam stalker but a girl, LesB kott ? hahaha cheyy jahat ! I share this with sister and she gave me this *merepek perr* looks. hahaha.

Thanks Tumblr ! The least is i felt better. I miss my 315 suddenly. tsk. &&& SEMUT. I wonder how is he. hmmm. imy semut. Anybody ? HUG ME !

lastly,

Now what ? Start asking, am i worth you ? -.- Everything on me. I agree. Blame me.

2010-03-22T03:47:00.008+08:00

-Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle-

hahaha random.

Okehh, just a quick update as i don't want to make my blog so dusty and dead. I totally hate DEAD blog, really. Sorry AVID readers for turning it so dusty and dead. I know how it feels when you wanted to read somebody's blog but the blog is not updated. It makes the blog into a boring one. I hope nobody "terasa" kehh. Im refer-ing to mine. hahaha Its not that im on purposed, but this blogger is such a pain in my ass laa ! tsk. -.- Lucky i have my tumblr and multiply to depend on. kwang3~ Okehh here it goes,

Ehh, im jealous with big brother, he can do whatever he wants in his room already tau. Like karaoke, jam, and stuff like that la. whatever la. Cool tau. tsk ! Action. Nehmind, i still can sebok-sebok. hahaha. Blueck ! okehh diam hahaha.

At least i feel us again. Its a good sign right ? See, i told you, i need time. Its not that i don't try. But what i need is more time. :)) I am confident enough that you've read my multiply. Hoping you could understand a bit of me. I don't ask much, but just a little bit only. I understand if it's difficult for you to understand me, that's always the problem in me, always make things complicated. Sorry. That's part of me already. I won't let people to really understand me, but I salute to those who could figure every of my complications. hahaha Close ones. :DDDDDD Trust ? i don't want to mention about that. -.- Okehh la, IM NOT HAPPY YET IM NOT SAD. That's it. byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyye loves.

2010-03-16T22:45:00.005+08:00

-.-

Tronky, Kinde bueino, Ferrero Roche, Magnetto choc ice cream = toilet & pimples ! tsktsktsk.

I have pimples on my forehead, my cheek, and my chin currently. ohh gosh ~ what a HORRIBLE CREATURE ON EARTH !

Ermmm wait, mimie ? chocolates ? OMG ! hahaha Im'ma "I-HATE-CHOCOLATE" girl, you guys know that. hehe thanks to siblings and mummy ehh, make me wants to eat those stuff hahaha. cheyy~ Okehh byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyes.

2010-03-14T10:20:00.003+08:00

Hoping that bby is doing so fine. Promise will get back a.s.a.p alright. I cant stand missing him already, REALLY ! Im'ma total miserable lady on earth. psft ! ILY mkbh. (hearts)

*******

Had fun at uncle MAN's workshop. Really ! Parents gone wild, small kids gone crazy, teenagers remain cool. hahaha cheyy~ Okehh dah, i penat giler. Byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyes !

crashed.

2010-03-12T07:40:00.012+08:00

To all, don't bother finding me now, as nobody can really get through me besides family members. I am no longer using any handphones. Try calling both my numbers if you don't believes me. Please don't ask why. At least, this is what i wished for years ago ? months ago ? Ohh i can't remember, obviously not days ago. -.-

To whom i met yesterday, it might be the last ? hopefully no. *long deep sigh* To whom that can't make it, im hoping that you guys could make it but its okehh and i'm sorry, only if you guys know we might not meet again. Just pray that this really won't happen. *cross ur fingers* Just remember, i love you guys and will be remembered always. :D

No use wishing or hoping, as things happened. Really disappointing, really am. My day ends with a big SUCK-ish. From morning till late night. At least in between there's friends making me smile even if it don't last. Thanks bulan, E, Lina, Dayah and my "kakak" ryaa. hmmm

How i wish i could vanished from this stupid idiotic lame world now, i mean at this very point of time, at this hours, at this minutes, and at this seconds. ahh whatever. -.- I don't understand why i have to be in this kind of situation. It really disconcerts me. I guess that's what people say, DUGAAN ? -.- Nevermind, i still consider Patience is the key to everything. Good things come to those who waits, right ? hmmm. Insya'allah.

Enough already, i don't wish to continue any further. Please i repeat, don't bother finding me anymore. Ohh, i love my brothers alot. Byyyyyyyyyyyyyes !

.~~truelovewaits~~.

2010-03-11T17:06:00.010+08:00

DOWNDOWNDOWNDOWN

the well

Tell you what, I don't even recognize myself now. Ask me why or what happen or whatever la. I simply can't give you any answer because i myself simply don't understand it either. I am getting weaker and weaker and weaker and weaker and weaker and weaker as i grow older. My attitude been making lives complicated. TUE ? -.- Ohh shuts ! Whatever it is, the thing i wanted to emphasize on is, I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM now. People hates me this way, only if you know i even hates myself for a drastic change. I didn't ask for all this to happen okehh. Ohh, i am always being such a KLUTZ ! I'm in a miserable state currently.

I can't love the people like how i used to, i can't miss the people like how i used to. I can't spent my time with them like how i used to. I need and want them to understand but they can;t. why ? Because i am making their minds filled with question marks and creating confusions. My fault. My blame. Everything on me, I get it. -.- Seriously, i simply don't understand.

I'm so sorry to those who probably maybe don't understand what i am trying to confess here. Nevermind, it's for me to know and for you to find out. My blog anyway. Okehh enough, Let's put it this way, help me find my own self back loves. I lost my happy soul. I need someone. Okehh Byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyes !

2010-03-10T11:33:00.026+08:00

Gone and Dead

I believe one of the toughest situations you can be ever faced with is deciding whether you should just move on or hold on a little tighter. Move on, and maybe you'll lose a chance at the best thing that could have ever happened, or hold on and have the possibility of your heart being broken.

Along the way, I’ve learnt that you can’t let anyone in too far and you can’t trust endlessly. The biggest mistake you can make is to care or love someone more than yourself, because then you are just setting yourself up for disappointment. Boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you’re broken, you’ll never be fully fixed. I felt stupid somehow.

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Right now I’m doubting myself and asking myself repeatedly: Am I even worthy of being loved? By anyone at all?

Ohh please, Ignore those craps i wrote above. Am just letting out what's in this tipsy mind &&& I am not being myself for the past few days ? few weeks ? ohh whatever, my mood is exasperated. I ignored my hp, both from just now ! No, actually it's after i hang up with bby. And i don't even bother to take a glance and look who msg-ed me till It went totally silent by itself, i think my batt gone flat as i forgot to charge it earlier. Nehmind, sometimes silence make things better. Ohh ya, i think there's something wrong with my LG cookie battery. -.- Byyyyye cintas.

Cheer up KAKAKs ! We still have each others back.

2010-03-09T15:28:00.016+08:00

best i ever had.

tsk -.- what happen ? my phones been giving me problem nowadays. Mintak kene buang already kehh ! At one part i will receive a bunch of msg-es at one part it goes silent and at one part i cant even make any outgoing calls. Omg ! I got a terrible headache with both my phones.

Ohh bby said he's changing bike soon ? psft -.- He's not telling me what bike. tsk. Nehmind just wait and see. imyt. haix.

I am feeling so restless. I didn't go online. I didn't do any bloghoping. I didn't take my lunch. I didn't take my dinner. But, I did a lot of sleeping today. Housechores, ohh i didn't do any [>.<] &&& i think i am shrinking, really. Most of my clothing are getting bigger already, no kidding.

mama : kak, tak masak ?

me : huh ? byee. *back to sleep*

mama : kak, tak angkat kain ?

me : huh ? byee. *back to sleep*

see ? more like garfield, smaller version la hahaha. -.-

Lastly, my younger sister is being such a SICKO, PERVERT, PAIN IN MY ASS ! Damn irritated by her. -.- She's gone crazy, really ! She's frightening me, somehow hahaha. mood tgh tak betul. -.- Okehh byyyyyyes !